Graphic Memories

Graphic Memories

My innocence has been released

Since the day I found out I got H.P.V a disease

I feel guilt unclean so ashamed

My mind runs negative no one to blame

No where to run no place to hide

I must keep positive I am not going to die

I have to stick it in my mind

This isn’t my last breath everything is fine

So many things eat at me

My mind seems to run freely

My life was headed in the right direction

Eight months counting I had a less addiction

I stopped myself from craving pleasure

Then he came along and brought me upon pressure

I did not want it I did not say yes I screamed no

He kept his hand over my mouth stayed real close

He slid his self inside me

I screamed in pain I yelled mercy

I kicked him I tried to run away

I didn’t get far he captured me like his prey

Tears ran down my cheek

After he finished I felt easy and weak

He looked straight into my eye

Said I better not go home and cry

I am haunted with such graphic memories

When my mind reverts back to that day I feel all my worries

I live my life in regret  

It wasn’t my fault so why must I fret

I try to cover up what all has been done

By getting under a certain someone

I figure I can get rid of what runs the my mind

By getting with a guy and occupying my time

I have my mind on freeze

That’s the only chance I feel at ease

I don’t stop to think about me getting raped

All I focus on is how I get to escape

                             By: Vanessa Sanchez

                                11/4/09