To let it happen.

  It feels so good,
 The lost memories.
  Not being able to remember,
 Our times playing in the rain.
 Your sweet soft hand in mine,
  As we jumped in puddles.
 Mud clogging our boots,
  All over our clothes.
 It feels amazing,
  To not remember a thing,
 About us.
  I love the emptyness in my head,
 That tells me nothing.
   It leaves me guessing,
  Everything,
   Including you.
 Its not like I cant remember,
  Or start my heart again.
 A couple pumps after the electric shock that fills my body.
  Twice they did it,
 and my body thrashed against the white tape.
  You would have laughed.
 I cant really remember it though,
  Just a feeling.
 Maybe when they called a time,
  I would have woken up,
   and remembered everything.
  All the memories.
 You would think that I would have tried.
  Yet no,
   I didnt.
 I just let myself drift,
  Far Far away,
 Into the land of death.