Trapped

a stupid shot, rookie mistake
these pieces go rolling after this break
I fell to my knees
so eager to please
quickly bent and broken
after your words so brashly spoken
flood gates break, tears spill past
down my cheeks they are cast
sliding all too slowly, taking their time
it seems impossible, it should be a crime
torturing me all down their path
wishing I could be more, but do the math
after it all adds up i'm less than what I want
my facade is nonchalant
but inside I am rolling and screaming
left in black walls and dreaming
that maybe one day soon
I could see the sky in the afternoon
instead of the time I'm allowed
out under a storm cloud
when the rain just falls and falls
and makes me think again of walls
so then I go back inside where I will stay
until my thoughts are nothing but decay