What Could've Been

we haven't even met yet
and I am in your debt
because you would love me
even through all the debris
and I would love you too
in fact, too much to pursue
I would only bring you pain
it's so much to explain
but I've seen what I can do
if you only knew
you will think that I can overcome this
but ignorance is bliss
I know that I have to let go of your hand
if you could only understand
how it kills me inside
that this love must be denied
because there is poison in my blood
I can fight it as much as a flood
I must follow where it leads
where there are no flowers, only weeds
I know that when the day comes
the day my heart drums
I will have to fight with everthing I've got
or else I will quickly be caught
in every single thing that you are
the distance is too far
I say this now, hopeping it will hold
I would never want to leave you in the cold
and if I succumb
I know what I am to become
I have seen it, and I have felt it
I will finally admit
that this is my greatest fear
to want to hold you near
even when I would kill your soul
by taking all of the control
please, take this as a warning
and leave in the morning
don't let me become her
please, just forget what we were