Not Gonna Happen

My favorite addiction
I can only have when I sleep
still under the lull of affliction
is when you're mine to keep.
I want you, need you
see you, breathe you.
My day starts and ends with you
I can't stop it, I can't stop you.
I don't think I can stand this pain
not anymore, another second or moment
it's too much, too much the same
you took my heart, took it and broke it.
The words used to spill from my pen
run across the page and mean something
until I felt better once again
until I could fix this one thing.
Frenetic in my chest,
I can't settle its red weight
I can never let it rest
if only I could change the rate
slow it, help it, and heal
seal this scar into a line
and stop what I feel
stop everything until I'm fine.