Numbness Unknown

Darkness has fallen, o'er everthing I know,

Everone has left me, I sit here alone.

Day after day, my heart grows more bitter,

My love for the world, has long since been withered.

From where has it come, this hate in my heart,

The anger that helped tear my family apart?

Why do I feel I am trapped in this cage,

So quick to defend, so quickly enraged?

I'm sorry for the fights, I would start everyday,

I never wanted, to hurt you that way.

I never realized, I lost all control,

Until the day when I found, my hands on your throat.

The way that I felt, I cannot explain,

I thought it was you, causing my pain.

Instead it was me, my demons have won,

This hate in my heart, has enveloped the sun.

Now as I sit here, in the dark all alone,

A coldness takes over,  a numbness unknown.

How do I get back, to the light I so yearn,

Too late is this lesson, through loss it was learned.