Not Today

Heart slowly beating,

wish you were here

but every time you say my name

my heart trembles with fear.

Wanting to speak

but keeps thoughts hidden inside

wanting to say these words

But yet,

in my heart I know these words not true

Life is full of lies,

no matter how innocent they seem

I just want someone

who is more than a dream;

Someone to hold me close,

breathily whisper sweet nothings against

my skin as you hold me close,

just being

I don’t know you,

so how could I love you?

Other guys flirt and talk

but it’s just not the same as

how you make me feel,

even though to you

this is probably just a game

Broken,

losing slumber

I just can’t help

but wonder

why my heart feels so.

So lost inside,

but yet no tears have I cried

wondering what I should do

‘bout how my heart feels for you

This is my promise,

this is my vow:

I will not fall for you,

not today, no how