the habit starts again

The blade that once cut the skin
Still longs to bring the pain again
It calls my name and longs for me
It whispers rhymes and songs to me

But we all know I’m just a cut away
From dieing on this dark new day
And as I tend the broken skin
I feel the need to cut again

Just like the twisted blades before
This blade wants me to cut some more

As I place it against my skin
I go ahead and cut again
A drop of blood falls to the floor
And the pain cycle starts once more

So turn your heads and  pretend again
That we all don’t see the pain under my skin
And as it finds its way to the top
We all know I will never stop

So every one just look away
my habit started again today
And as the pain leaks through my skin
The blades find their way deeper in