Trust, Love and Fear

Chapter 1

I love him. I hate him. I love him. I hate him. This Just keep repeating over and over in my head. It’s been 7 months since he lied to me, cheated on me. I loved him, I trusted him. What did I do to make him be walking down the hall with that that, 2-faced tramp on his arm?

 

                “Hey Girl!” Yells my best friend, interrupting my thoughts.

                “Oh, Hey Beth.” I answered quietly.

                “Nicole, you know it’s not good for you to be………depressed.”

                “Beth, for the LAST time I am not depressed.”

                “Okay whatever you say. But guess what I heard from Lindsey.”

                “What?”

                “That Mike likes you!”

                “Beth, we already knew that.”

                “Well duh, but now other people know too so he must be telling people!”

                “And so he’s telling a few people. That doesn’t mean anything. Does it?”

                “Man Nicole, you are so naive. Of course it means something. It means he likes you a lot. It means he’s going to ask you out.” She talked down to me when she said this, Like I was an infant that had done wrong. But I still felt kind of happy. I liked Mike and I have for awhile. He’s the only other person I’ve liked other than Chris.

                “Beth, he is not going to ask me out.”

                “Whatever you Nicole, you’ll see. Well I have to go to class. Bye.”

                “Bye.”

               

                Oh that’s right, I’m in school. It had totally slipped my mind were I was. Crap, I have Geometry next hour. Now don’t get me wrong I love geometry. But I sit by Mike, and that is always awkward. I shut my locker and walked silently toward room 709. I walked in and took my regular seat in the back of the room.

 

                “Hello class and welcome.” Introduced Mrs. Hall, my favorite teacher, “Today we will learn about…….” After that I zoned out. About half way through class Mike tapped me on the shoulder, he handed a tiny folded up piece of paper. I carefully unfolded the note and read it silently.

                                                Hey.          

 

I quickly wrote back.

 

                                                Hey.

 

I handed it to Mike. He read it then hesitated before replying.

 

                                                Umm, I was just wondering. Do you want to do something tomorrow?

 

I took the note, I read it, and then I sighed. Beth was right. But I didn’t care I had a date with Mike.

 

                                                Yeah Mike. I’d love too.

 

I passed the note back to Mike. He read it then smiled. He stuffed the note in his pocket and started to do his work. I looked at the clock it was 11:55 am. In 5 minutes I can go to lunch and tell Beth the good news. The bell rang. Everyone began to stampede towards the door. I slowly stood up gathered my books and followed the crowd to the lunch room. I got my lunch at met my friends at the normal lunch table. I looked to see who all was there. Matt, Beth and Joe were all at the table. Matt and Joe were talking so I decided to go on and tell Beth.

 

                “Hey Beth, I have Great news.  Guess what I’m doing this weekend.” I greeted Beth.

                “What is it Nicole. I haven’t seen you this happy in forever.” She smiled.

                “I’m going to go out with Mike this weekend!”

                “No way, that’s awesome I’m so happy for you.”

                “Thanks.”

                “You know we should so totally go to the mall to get you a new outfit for your ‘big day’”

                “No, Beth I’m fine I already have good clothes.”

                “Yeah, but you don’t have dating clothes.”

                “Beth seriously, I’m fine.”

                “Alright whatever you say.”

                “Okay Beth I love you but I have to go.”

                “Okay, bye.”

                I said my goodbyes to the table and made my way to my locker. I got my things for the last of the day. I walked about 4 steps, and there they were. Chris and Jane right in front of me. Body to body, mouth to mouth, him on her, her on him. I felt my heart drop into my stomach. Chris, my ex-boyfriend that I was in love with that cheated on me making out with that 2-faced tramp Jane. I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned around to see who it was.

 

                “Oh, hey Mike.” I answered with a relieved sigh.

                “Hey.” He answered with a slight smile.

                “What’s up?”

                “Nothing, just wanted to see if you needed any help carrying your books.” He reaches out to take my books and I handed them to him.

                “Thanks.”

                “No problem. Well how was your day?”

                “Good I guess. How about you?”

                “Fine. Well here’s your class.” He handed me back my books and began to walk away.

                “Hey Mike.” I said, he then paused and turned around. I did my nice little half smile and said “Thanks again.”

                He laughed, turned around and walked away. I stood there a minute just watching as he walked away. After he was completely out of site I turned around and walked into my class. Before I knew it class had ended. Good, only one class to go. I thought. Today is Friday and in 1 hour I will be free for the weekend! Free to do whatever I wanted until tomorrow. Then I was free to be with Mike.

My thoughts were then interrupted by the sight of the extremely sexy Ryan Blake. Now let’s straighten this out. I do not like Ryan. I just so happen to think he is sexy. So anyway there I was just standing in the middle of the hallway staring at Ryan. When I had finally come back to my senses I noticed that not only was I staring at Ryan. But he was staring at me, I was so shocked.  My jaw dropped and my mind went racing. Then he smiled, not just any smile, his smile. With those nice full lips and those dimples that are so sexy. So what was I supposed to do? I surely didn’t know so I just smiled back.

Then out of no were Beth pops up in front of me. I jump about 5 feet in the air and she begins to laugh.

 

“What in the world is wrong with you?” I screamed, “You scared the living shit out of me.”

“I know, isn’t it great?!”

“Um, let me think. NO!”

“Calm down Nicole. I was just playing gosh. Sorry.”

“Aw, it’s okay.”

“Well girl you better be getting to class.”

“Yeah you’re right. Love you, bye.”

“Bye.”

 

I finished my one minute walk to my class, the art class. My most hated class because I have no creative talent. I walked in and sat down. I got out my notebook and wrote down my word of the day. I then did my work for the day. Then I just waited for the bell to ring. I looked at the clock. 2:55. five more minutes. Maybe they will do the announcement early. I looked at the clock again. 2:57. I doubt they will. They barely ever do. It’s stupid. I’m sitting here watching the clock. 2:59. Ah. One minute. Not very long, the bell will probably ring any

“Ding!”

I jumped up gathered my things and ran to the bus. I got on in time to get my normal seat before anyone else stole it.  I looked at all the on coming passengers. The first one on was Matt. My best guy friend, we’ve known each other since we were born. We’ve grown up together the past 15 years. He came up and sat by me.

“Hey sexy.” He greeted.

“Hey babe.”

“How was your day?” As he asked me the bus headed on its way.

“Good. Mike asked me to go do something with him tomorrow. I told him I would.” He looked shocked.

“Really, you sure. I mean you haven’t gone out since the Chris thing.”

“I know but that was seven months ago and I decided to give guys a second chance.”

“Really, well good job.” He kissed me on my cheek, “I’m proud of you. You’re finally over Chris!”

“Yep, and trust me I’m more surprised than you are. Oh, Um, Matt.”

“Yeah, Nicky.” Matt always calls me Nicky ever since we were little.

“You want to come over tonight and eat dinner, maybe stay on night?”

“I’ll have to call my dad but sure. I’d love to.”

 He smiled and kissed me on the cheek again. Just then the bus came to a stop and it was time for me and Matt to get off. We exited the bus and walked toward my house. Matt took out his phone and called his dad to ask permission to stay on night. When he hung up he told me that his dad said he could.

 

“Great!” I cheered. He smiled and so did I.