Don't Think I Can't Love You(2)

Instead of walking back to the car, I took off running for the street. I needed air. I needed a lot of air. My best friend? Really? What a- I don’t even know a word to describe it.

I ran half way to my house when my phone rang.

“Hello?” I answered, wiping my nose with my sleeve.

“Carmen? It’s Ellie.” Ellie answered.

“Go to hell.” I retorted and hung up the phone.

I threw my phone on the ground, watching it shatter before running to Robert’s house.

“Yeah?” He opened the door sounding groggy.

“Hey,” I said, wiping my face.

“What’s wrong, Carmen?” He asked pulling me into a warm hug.

“Ricky slept with Ellie,” I cried.

Robert pushed me out to arms length. Me being 5’3 I had to look up to meet his green eyes. He looked super mad.

“You’re joking right?” he asked, looking like he was ready to kick someone’s ass.

“No,” I sobbed even harder.

Robert pulled me up against his chest, running his hands up and down my back in a comforting way.

“Come inside,” he pulled me in and closed the door behind us.

I walked over and sat on the couch, him beside me. I laid my head on his lap and he stroked my hair as I sobbed uncontrollably.

“You okay Carmen?” Robert asked after about an hour.

I got up off his lap and he handed me a tissue. After blowing my nose and wiping my face I shook my head yes.

“I’m going to use your bathroom,” I said walking upstairs.

“Okay, you still have clothes up there if you wanna get a shower.” He yelled to me.

“I will. Thanks, Robby.” I yelled back walking into his room.

I grabbed a jean mini-skirt, a white tank top, and a light blue polo. I walked through his room and into his bathroom, which was pretty big. It had a stand-alone tub, a separate shower, double sinks, and a linen closet. It was decorated in Earthy tones like green and brown.

I took off my highlighter pink skinny jeans and my black t, along with my undergarments and stepped into the shower. I let the water run down my body and just relaxed, taking in all the events.

“Carmen, can I come in?” Robert said while knocking on the door.

“Yeah, come in,” I said rinsing the shampoo out of my hair.

“I brought you a towel and one of my t-shirts.” he placed them on the counter and sat on the bench beside the window.

“Thank you, that’ll be so much more comfortable than a skirt and polo.” I rinsed the rest of the soap off my body, turned off the water, wrapped myself in a towel and got out. Robert has seen me naked just as much as I have.

“Hand me that shirt,” I said pointing to the Miami shirt he had brought for me.

“Here, I’ll even close my eyes.” He smirked. “How are you feeling?” He asked after I gave him the okay.

“I feel fantastic. I think that shower was all I needed.” I smiled, putting tooth paste on my toothbrush. I always have an extra one here.

“Are you sure?” he asked, looking at me cautiously.

“If I wasn’t could I do this?” I walked over to him and sat on his lap. Face to face I put my mouth to his and kissed him passionately. I got this warm feeling in my gut I’d never gotten before. I pulled away and stared at Robert.

“I guess you’re okay,” he smiled.

Maybe I shouldn’t have kissed him. We’re best friends, I’m closer to him than I am with Ellie. And I’d never gotten a warm feeling in my stomach when I kissed Ricky. Actually I’d never felt like that when I kissed anyone.

I got up off his lap and went into his room plopping on his bed and turning the T.V. on. He sat down beside me and we watched The Secret Life Of Bees as I drifted off to sleep, my head once again on his lap.

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