To the past

 Dear Jake,
 We both couldnt be together at the time, we never even admitted we liked each other. Although I know in my heart we both did. All our friends would tease us when we flirted and we didnt really know at the time how obvious it was to all. The way we cuddled, the way we smacked butts, the way we laughed, hit each other, and fell asleep cuddling... It was totally us falling in love. You feared it though, since you had a girlfriend and she was your first love. But what confused you the most was, how nice I treated you when she didnt.

  When the time came that something happened between us you had known you had gone to far since you had a girlfriend it was wrong.. It wasnt a kiss, it was something more sexual and Although it wasnt me who did it to you, you did it to me.. You still Blamed me in a way. I understand you regret it, but you took it out on me. Told me never to tell, and forget it happened. How can I forget that night? That we layed side by side under the stars, that you did that, how can I forget that tight long hug we last gave each other before you left and never returned? I feel used and stupid that I should have known she was worth more then me to you. I pray that we can still be friends, after all its not I who ran away for good it was you. I miss you dearly and Loved you like a bestfriend although I crushed on you.. I wish I could see you again.

Sincerly, Me