Pushing Through [Introduction]

Introduction

           Jack Roberts is sitting at the desk two ahead of me his head is tilted down and he's writing a note probably to the one person I would never imagine him talking to. I remember when we used to talk everyday and he would hug me constantly his smile melting my heart and always tearing it apart slowly. In the end, he was the one that broke me apart, the one that killed me too but he was also the one who brought me alive again smashed his lips into mine and then never talked to me again. If you've ever had that happen to you then you know how it feels kind of like a person who has smashed a thousand swords into every presure point in your body; actually maybe worse than that. He reaches up and brushes his hair out of his face he knows I'm in the same class as him but he wont turn around, he's very calm as if we had never met before in our entire lives. This was our senior year, the year magic would have happened for us we would have gone to the same college and probably been friends forever. I close my eyes and lean back in my chair happy that it doesnt hurt as bad anymore, not as bad as it had the first time.

        The bell rings and I pop open my eyes and catch his looking at me, we stare at each other and he holds up his index and middle finger but he isnt flipping me the bird. Bringing it down to his chest he taps it twice looks away and turns in his chair, that was the one sign of acknowledgement I've had from him in two years even though he lives just down the street but around the corner. He tosses the note across the room towards a boy with blonde hair who is absolutely gorgeouse in my opinion but unusual. Jack tilts back in his chair and his shoulders slump in a noticible manner no one sits in the seat between us and no one comes near him. He turns around and looks at me again. His eyes I notice arnt blue anymore their extremely brown, almost black but not quite. There is no movement but when he licks his lips my heart speeds up and I can hear my blood rushing through my head. He smiles softly and looks down tapping his chest again only this time he does it more than twice he does it four times.

      The teacher walks in and he turns around leaving me to wallow in my own misery, How I wished I could hold him tight to me again. I close my eyes and hold back the tears that treathened to come out.

    "My name is Mr.Crawlor and I will be your English teacher for the first semester of this school year. We will be learning about all that good english stuff as I pass this list around I want you to check off your names please and I want you to come up front and get your FIRST ASSINGNMENT!" The teacher says all excitedly and I open my eyes wipping away my mascara. When I look around I realize Jacks not at his seat and neither is the blond headed kid, looking around the classroom I see no one sits at my row of tables and no one sits on either side of me. The kids who are close to me cringe and I have a ringing in my ears.

          "I Have to leave." I say and I stand up stumbling out of the classroom the ringing in my ears get louder until I hear screaming, I dont realize its my own screams until someone clamps me on the mouth and hold me close to their body. I look up into Jacks eyes. "I remember everything." I whisper.