Diary of a young mother

I just found out I am 2 weeks pregnant ,when I told my boyfriend ( the father)

he said he would try to get the money for a abortion. I don't know if that is what I

want ,but how can I take care of a child at 16 And what if my parents find out.I don't know what other choice I have.

Well my boyfriend said he is still trying to get the money.I am so confused.   I

can feel my body changing .I talked to a friend who had a abortion she told me they told her it wasn't really a baby yet, but she said she has nightmares and she keeps hearing a baby cry and she can't stop thinking about was it a girl or a boy and what would it have looked like me or him,But still how can I finish school and take care of a baby. I wish i could talk to my mom ,but she would be so dissapointed in me.

Well I went to the Dr today he said the baby was doing good,I ask him about abortion

and he explained to me the different ways it is done he also said he did not approve of abortion. He advised me to talk to my mom , but I just can't it would hurt her so much.

I feel the baby moving and growing inside of me ,How could this not be a life ,I have to decide what to do soon.Went back to the Dr he said the baby has hair now and is very active ,he told me to talk to my mom again ,this is driving me crazy I have to do something.

I'm really starting to show getting harder to hide it .Seen the Dr today he showed me pic's of my baby,my baby is a girl ,I always dreamed that my first child would be a girl , but just not this soon. My boyfriend said he has the money for a abortion , but i told him i didn't know if I could go threw with it he got real upset and said what are you trying to do ruin my life .He really upset me , because this is his baby girl too .

My boyfriend and i went to a Dr who does abotions he explaned how they would cause me to go into labor then just before the baby 's head comes out they will suction her brains out ,we left in a hurry even my boyfriend said that was just too cruel,now what to do ,he told me to talk to my mom,i have to talk to someone I told him I don't care what I have to do I want to keep our little girl he agreed to go to Dr with me

Well too late to turn back now I talked to my mom she was upset ,but she said she would have been more upset if I had aborted her first grandchild . She said we could work it out she will keep the baby while i go to school and I could get a part time job to help out and I would need to go to college in our town or over the inter-net , but we will make it work.Went to the Dr our baby girl is growing my boyfriend heard the heartbeat and saw the pic's his face lit up when he saw her kick,and when he saw her little fingers

We have decided to name the baby Angel because she is our little angel. My boyfriend talked to his parents and they were upset , but they liked the ideal of being grandparents and want to help us make this work. I wish we had went to our parents to start with. Never would i have guessed they would be so understanding.I hope we can be as good parents

Our baby girl is here she is so beautiful she has my boyfriends eyes and my hair and nose how could we have ever even thought about destroying this life ,she is a gift from God .Our little Angel. Her grandparents are so over joyed they are already talking about who gets to babysit  her first and everything they want to buy her .Our little Angel will have a happy life ,Thank you God for giving us this Angel and for making sure we did not destroy your gift Thank you God for being there for me even though I didn't relize it at the time I know you was the one putting thoughts in my head sending all the right people to talk to me.  So God please be with our little angel and guide her threw her life .