Perfect Isnt Perfect (15)

15

We went to the local library so we could start on the science project that we had just been assigned on diseases that affect our culture today.

I wanted to spend every waking moment with him if that was possible. He was always there when I needed him especially here lately. I sometimes wondered if he had gotten over the whole Joseph thing but I knew he wouldn’t make a big deal he loved me and I him.

We were together a month before the whole school found out which ended up being Kate’s fault but I couldn’t blame her. No matter what I always ended up day-dreaming about what the future may hold and all.

Joseph eventually came back to school. I steered clear of him and vice versa but I always had people asking what happened. I didn’t respond to those comments. One day we ended up parking next to each other I simply nodded my head and headed toward the building.

But that would be the day he tried to apologize again.

“Jen, wait up a sec will ya?” he said before I could get across the parking lot and into the safety of the school.

Being the dumb me I turned around “What do you want?” I asked feeling a little sense of déjà vu.

I really didn’t want to admit that his voice sounded familiar and that I had missed it. “Jen before you decide to go off and get mad at me I just want to say that I am sorry. Really I am. I started seeing a therapist after err well everything and he’s helped me let go of some of the resentment and anger. I know I shouldn’t have done anything that night I was messed up and I hope one day that you will begin to forgive me.”

Honestly I could have applauded him it was a good speech and he meant it but it didn’t change anything that he did to me.

“Thank you Joe,” I said quietly knowing it was the right thing to do “someday I may start to forgive you maybe.”

I walked inside the school so he couldn’t see me. As soon as I was clear I ran to the restroom. My stomach had gone queasy. I barely made it into the stall before I vomited all over the toilet.