the underground

Have you experienceD one of those moments
where time stops?

 What first seems like hours at a time
 turn out to only be a second or two
almost as if life stopped
just for you
so you can stop and think to yourself...

“Why am I doing this...
...why am I doing this to myself?”

Unfortunately for me,
 one of these stereotypical-movie moments kicked in
in one of the most awkward moments anyone could think of;
my ex-boyfriend on top of me
‘System of a down’ playing loudly in the background
and a prominent stink of weed and cigarettes in the air.

I’m not quite sure what sparked my so-called ‘revelation’ that day...
it could have been a number of things
narrowing it down would be seemingly impossible.

None the less..
my memories kicked in that day.
The ones that took years of hard work to forget
or at least pretend didn’t happen.
...memories that had once turned into myth
came back to haunt me.