Achluophobia- Fear of darkness
Acrophobia/Altophobia- Fear of heights
Agraphobia- Fear of sexual abuse
Arachnophobia- Fear of spiders
Ballistophobia- Fear of missiles or bullets
Carcinophobia- Fear of cancer
Claustrophobia- Fear of confined spaces
Coulrophobia- Fear of clowns
Kakorrhaphiophobia- Fear of failure or defeat
Monopathophobia- Fear of definite disease
Tomophobia: Fear of surgical operations


These are many of my fears and definitely not all of them, but they do not stop me from living my life. Everyday is a chance to overcome my fears. Now the only time I'm afraid of the dark is when I'm alone outside of my room. Slowly but surely. And my fear of heights is improving. This is because I've realized that if all you do is fear things, then you never get to truly live your life.

I'm only a Junior in high school and 16, but that doesn't mean I'm not extremely mature for my age. Because I am even though I can still have my kid moments. I especially love going to the park and swinging on the swings and playing on the playsets. Sometimes you just need to experience the kid in you again because if you don't, you'll grow old. Age may be just a number, but I believe you can tell a person's real age by their personality.

I'm not one who tries to fit in everywhere I go. In fact, I'm just me and if you don't like it, too bad because I wasn't born to please you. I do put others' happiness in front of my own. I will go unhappy, if it will make someone else happy. Of course, there are a few things that this does not apply to. Majority of the time, I'm in control. I seem to think that if I'm not, then something is bound to go wrong. I'm a perfectionist, so sue me.

I know that a lot of people, especially teenagers, will rant on and on about how in love with someone they are. Three-fourths of the time, they don't mean it. And about half of those people are only saying it because their partner did. I'm not like that. I say what I mean and I mean what I say. I'm not a very open person until I get to know you but I will say what's on my mind. Right now, that's Paul William Donohoe.

Here's the part where I rant on and on about how in love I am so if you wish, skip ahead because this might be long. I don't know what true love is. In the past I have thought I did but I think I hadn't really experienced true love yet. Am I experiencing it now? My parents would probably argue with me and say no, and so might some older, "wiser" people. If someone disagrees with me, raise your hand. Now that you look like an idiot with your hand raised, think about when you were first in love. Connection? I believe so. There is no time limit on love. In fact, I believe it takes a second to know someone, a minute to love them, and forever to forget them. All you have to do is add effort. Its the secret ingredient to a special recipe.

This is a continuation of the paragraph above. So last year I met this incredible boy, Paul. We became almost instant friends (mainly because on his first day I promoted him to my group for a project), and the story goes from there. I had a boyfriend at the time so nothing happened. Come October of '08, is when the sparks started to fly. Whenever I think of that tinme in our life I tell it as a story. Girl meets boy, girl falls in love with boy, girl and boy live happily ever after in one another's arms. This is the most amazing story ever and I'm living it. My life has never been more intoxicating and intriguing. Who cares if I sound like a "typical teenage girl" because honestly, I don't. I love Paul William Donohoe and everything about him. I love the way he smells, the way he kisses me, the warmth of his body next to mine, the way I fit perfectly into his arms without any awkwardness, the way he looks at me, his eyes, his hair, his perfect and amazing body (those arms! oh man), the way our hands fit perfectly together, how he makes me feel like the most important girl in the entire world, how I can tell him anything and everything, his smile and how it melts my heart, how seeing him causes my heart to skip a beat even if I had just been with him no more than 5 minutes ago, how he makes me want to spend eternity with his arms wrapped around me engulfing me in a tight and protective hug with his arms around my neck and shoulders and me burrowing my head into his chest and wrapping my arms around him, how perfect he makes me feel, how fun and exhilarating he makes my life, how he's helped me shape into the person I want to be not for anyone else except for myself, and most importantly, I love how he loves me too and that our love is so great for one another that we can overcome anything in our way. This boy has my heart and I'm putting all my trust in him not to break it. He's everything to me.